This is a drawing that I drew as one of the exercises in Sherrie Eldridge’s adoption healing workbook. “Under His Wings”.
I remember dreaming this dream over and over again growing up. The hallways never ended. They went on forever and ever. I was never going to stop looking for my mommy.
But then I found her when I turned 21, and she hung up on me. I finally met her 1 time in person, and I never saw her again. She left me and rejected me 110%.
So that was 2 times. One was giving me away at birth,and the other was when I found her. I will never understand WHY?
I must say through God’s Grace & Mercy I might never understand WHY, but he’s helping me COPE with my adoptee feelings. If I didn’t have God on my side, there is no way I would be here right now. When my birth mother abandoned me, and later rejected me God was always right by my side. When my birth father rejected me, God never took a step away, only came closer. I’m growing everyday and with God healing is possible.
If you are in Lexington, KY or the surrounding areas and an Adult Adoptee please email adopteeloveforever@gmail.com I’m praying about starting a support group in my area to help other adoptees heal and connect. You are NOT alone. 🙂
Pamela Karanova 